Today I stopped in At the Sidewinder. The Times had this article... In it, it reports that a Prosecutor from Somewhere, America, killed himself with the cameras and Cops of the Dateline show "To Catch a Predator" outside his door... Amazing.
I caught the first episode two days ago. I conjunction with the Ted Haggard Scandal, I have become convinced that we are all being exposed as TOTAL HYPOCRITES. This is why our church is called "Grubby". We're not clean. We're not whole.
And here lies this Prosecutor guy. He kills himself, his shame is so great. He spent his life, earned his life, judging others. He passed out the treatment of accusation... but when he was exposed...
Hey, I've looked at porn. okay? everyone? when they try to draw me up and pull the rug out from under the feet of my "followers" (what a joke), you'll already be standing on tile. I've also told lies, hated, cussed, and been vile in a hundred unquantifiable ways...
...and i'm in love with Jesus! he's truly the Truth, for me. I don't know/care about your truth, but Jesus is my Truth. And for everyone that is helped by my foolish, irrational, moth-to-a-flame attraction to jesus... for everyone that gets stoked on my head banging against the lightbulb...
...of the Friend of Sinners...
remember: they killed God, when He started to befriend the Rabble. And that's ME! No bones. Me.
So, welcome to the fold, Ted. dethroned, naked, tarred and feathered, we gather to Jesus, the only true friend a sinner ever knew...
man. ...so tricky... so dangerous... selfish sex....
...but there's a Love that's deeper still...
okay. so you can't read it. but it's in the new york times. nobody ever comments, but if you did, it'd spark my day...
ReplyDeleteTed Haggard is one of my all-time favorite people, right now. He helps me understand myself. I see myself in him. at times stuck, trapped in webs of sin, but loved and able to be forgiven and restored.
someone said he should apologize to the Gay Community. I like that idea. He preached against homosexual practice and other sexual selfishnesses, while practicing and loving them in secret.
how would an appropriate apology read? maybe we all need to make one, since most of us are lined up with hollywood and xxxindustry in our hearts anyway...
Here it goes, Ted Haggards apology, bleeding into mine:
ReplyDeleteI am sorry that I preached against homosexual acts, not because they are good, but because I am a hypocrite. I am sorry that instead of sharing my brokeness and how I had fallen (continue to fall) and sharing about how Jesus picks me up, I simply railed against sinners as if I wasn't one. I am sorry I didn't practice mercy like Jesus asked me in the Beatitudes. I am sorry that now I will be judged with the same measure that I judged. I weep now for those of you that are scandalized by my actions, because the truth is that you shouldn't be scandalized, you should be disappointed in yourselves for holding me up as the messiah instead of Jesus, it is his movement, His Church, not Ted's.
My apology:
I am sorry that I continuue to fall. I am sorry that I do the things I don't want to do. I am sorry that my eyes drift after women too easy and my thoughts even easier. I am sorry if I have ever given any impression other than striving for holiness, any impression that somehow I have arrived because I haven't. I am sorry that sometimes I don't listen when people talk, but only calculate my next thought or comment. I am sorry if I have ever given any props to myself when the truth is that they belong solely to God working in me. -End Apology
The problem seems to be not that we should somehow stop teaching and preaching against sin, but that we should stop acting like we don't sin